Sunny Day to All,
Ohhhhhhh, how I miss blogging...
I had so many awesome plans for this summer; so many patterns I was supposed to sew. I planned all these different outdoor photoshoots that never took place. So disappointing.... This was the year I was supposed to take advantage of the summer to crowd my blog with some new pieces and enhance my skills. I was supposed to launch a few new projects and collaborate with other "sewists" but nothing happened.
Thank you to all of those that sent private messages asking if I was well. This summer has been very unpredictable. I had a medical procedure that totally stole my summer. I couldn't sew, I couldn't blog, I couldn't cook, I just couldn't... The stress associated with this procedure was overwhelming financially, physically and emotionally.
I tried to sew because I knew that sewing was my happy place. However, I felt stuck. It's like I wasn't inspired anymore. I felt like I had nothing left in me. I didn't have the energy that I usually have. I chose to pray and left everything in God's Hands. It was not easy but I smiled during the entire process. Some will ask how I did it or how I stayed so positive and the only answer I had was God. By the time I got off from work every day, I was uncomfortable or in pain and my body needed to rest. I was on heavy meds and could barely stay awake when I got home. I had to take care of my body and my soul. Unfortunately the procedure did not end well. I was devastated and in pain. I saw the sadness in everyone surrounding my husband and I and it hurt. Everyone always feed from my energy and for the 2nd time of my life, I didn't have any to share. So I chose to stay away for a while to deal with the pain. I had to found this peaceful place in my heart to accept this path. It is taking a while but I am choosing to refocus on what brought me joy; God, family and of course sewing.
When I finally found the strength to pick a pattern, select a fabric, cut and sew a garment, I was happy while I was sewing. But, as soon as I was done, I couldn't find the words to describe my experience with the pattern. So there you go, I am sitting on several garments that I have yet to share on the blog. But I kept sewing because when I did, I let myself go and felt much better. I have to admit that I still have my moments, but sewing heals. As soon as I started to sew again, I started feeling better. My body is still on recovery mode. I have an exhausted soul. My mind is still unsettled and my heart is still broken. But, sewing heals.
I have an amazing husband who went through this entire process with me and never left my side, whether it was at home, the center or the hospital. I am blessed with a strong family support. I am also surrounded with great friends.
So there you have it! This is where I have been. I am back and ready to share some great pieces. Again thank you so much for all the prayers, messages and support. Now it's time to loose this weight and keep sewing some beautiful garments.
Sewing truly heals.... so I shall rejoice in my happy place. Happy Sewing to You!
Sewing is my therapy...
I developed the passion for sewing about 2 years ago. Follow my journey as a seamstress who is determine to make her entire wardrobe one garment at a time. Thanks for stopping by!